Tag: sibling loss

I’ve started to embrace the grey skies
Instead of constant longing for sunshine
That’s where life usually lands
Most days I walk in the fog,
the uncertain conditions
That’s what grief is like
So much good left
Bright white
Splattered with midnight black
Moments that take your breath away
In the midst of intense joy
Your face flitters before my eyes
Your trouble, the sadness
Some say it makes moments sweeter
To know the bitterness
Happy moments aren’t meant to last
Though I do try
Continuum of losses & gains
The dark can shine, too.

i want to remember you as a young boy

one who laughed at his daddy

wanted the best gifts for his momma

worried over his sister’s suitors

the young man who rode dirt bikes

cried when his little beagle died 

you were a soldier

fighting battles most would never understand

daily charging against your brain

that would never let you be.

you struggled, we struggled with you.

mental illness is a family affair.

what went unsaid right before

sometimes drives me mad.

you were loved, so very loved.

you know the fullness of that now

from the One who is Love.

The house where I was raised

Now belongs to strangers

The chalk signatures of friends

Washed away

The secret passage connecting bedrooms

Stuffed with unused clutter

Do they know what happened here?

Years of family bliss

Erased by tragedy

One young life

Gone in the night

How could all of this

Be snuffed out in mere minutes?

New memories cannot remove it.

Ghosts hover forever.