We stood there frozen, limbs paralyzed, unable to move or speak. The two men carrying knives sneered and their eyes darted furiously, believing they had caught us. Just as I was mustering the courage to say something, anything, in an effort to scare them off, the distinct double click of a rifle cocking echoed around us. I looked intently at the robbers, thinking it was a weapon from their stash, but saw nothing. Then a voice, soft yet severely sharp, came from behind me, “Get out of my house right now or I’ll blow your heads to kingdom come.” It was momma. She had come in through the patio door, grabbing Daddy’s gun on the mantle on her way. Later we realized it wasn’t loaded, but that didn’t matter in the moment. The two men, faces frustrated but knowing their position, skittered out of the door quickly and into the night. Janie and I fell into Momma’s arms and cried. I sobbed harder than I had even at Daddy’s funeral. It was like the trauma of this horrifying experience had broken the dam I had built inside me after such immense loss. The lack of Momma’s tenderness over the last months didn’t matter in that moment of motherly protection. That was the first time she had truly hugged us in many months since our worlds had been turned upside down. I had no idea what the morning would bring, but in some small way, I thanked these two men for unintentionally breaking the walls that had so quickly been built between us, even if for a moment.
Tag: love
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Your presence
Is here yet so subtle
So far away
Like grasping at vapor
My love, my heart, my all
You are not near now
I question- what I have done?
Or perhaps not done.
But without Your imminence
I do not have the energy
To find you.
You promised to never leave
To meet me where I am
So I plead with you now
Give me the guidance I seek
The joy and peace I long for
I know it can only come from You
Don’t withhold
Your precious gifts from me.
You said to come to You as a child
Here I am
Like when my babies ask me to kiss their scrapes
In all my vulnerability
Heal my heart, fill my soul
As you have so many times before.
Without it I cannot survive
Here in this beautiful, vicious world.



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To be a mother
A picture of deep, imperfect love.
Giving your very self
In honor of growing
A new person.
Some ache for it
Wait and wait and wait
An ever elusive treasure.
Some are bestowed this gift
Only for that child
To be taken away.
Some endure physical destruction
To bring their child forth.
Perhaps this child grows to
Ignore all they were taught
Leaving only heartache
We see you today
Mothers whose story
Has turned out so differently
Than they had hoped.
To be a mother is to know
Joy
Pain
Loss
Courage
Sacrifice
Elation
Mother.
Your life is a beautiful poem.
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I’m not here
To soften all of your rough edges
They may be sharp to touch
That danger doesn’t scare me away.
Some will be weathered
By my love over time
Maybe some will be sanded
To a needle-like point
Together we make
The most beautiful range of peaks.




