Near.

Your presence

Is here yet so subtle

So far away

Like grasping at vapor

My love, my heart, my all

You are not near now

I question- what I have done?

Or perhaps not done.

But without Your imminence

I do not have the energy

To find you.

You promised to never leave

To meet me where I am

So I plead with you now

Give me the guidance I seek

The joy and peace I long for

I know it can only come from You

Don’t withhold

Your precious gifts from me.

You said to come to You as a child

Here I am

Like when my babies ask me to kiss their scrapes

In all my vulnerability

Heal my heart, fill my soul

As you have so many times before.

Without it I cannot survive

Here in this beautiful, vicious world.